rhythm. r o l l i n

24.8.17

Rock River

Sitting here, in our family home, drinkin tea n' smokin' hubbly bubbly with mama, Pascale making labneh. My older brother, i still call BJ (Ben Junior) from my tiny days but the rest call him Ben since he owned a restaurant... its more respectable, sits at the table next to us and my pa, Ibrahim (Ben in English) is outside in the garden. Little brother, i nicknamed bibi, is in the garage n' lil sis, Chantelle, is workin. My second little brother, Karim, left for Los Angeles yesterday n' today in a few hours for New Zealand with his love, Layli. I came back for his birthday and a few other series of event that is about to take place. I believe this photo of a rock on the river was taken in Lebanon. Makes me laugh because of my mom's english today "find a rock river" for a weight to help drain the water from the labneh. My hearts too with my chosen loves afar.

It's raining outside, i closed all the windows in the house, still feels open.

20.12.16




wrote here may 17th last year after my granpapa passed. was on the grey hound back to ktown, or was it the other way around. didnt share because there was a lot of confusion then. expressing how nausea was sinking in and all i wanted was to look out the window because i couldnt figure out how the feelings in writing. a lot has happened since then and the question, what is the value of time? the answer is becoming clearer as it goes by. sitting now by the porch window across the street from the home i lived in once on a higher level, where life seemed to have sucked out my very soul. And now...

17.12.14

loaner roamer

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well, well. what can I say, feeling quite reflective today. think in of the adventure of this year, of how when you're gone you can still connect with everyone here. when my phone got stolen in Prague at the start of the year, i chose to stay off the grid and face all my fear. i enjoyed the solitude, i really reached out, though I won't lie, there were times filled with doubt. went up and around over and under, inside and out, full of lust to wander. now i'm home n out of the unknown, day dreamin

27.2.14

spiritual anarchy


Once you experience near death, i find you'll never be the same.  If the end result is bad, but we got the thrill of doing it why must it plant fear in our hearts.

an aimless wanderer
dabbling here
dabbling there
honouring
cherishing
everything.
humbling stars
renewing sun
soothing rain
enlightening
ill never be 'too childish'
my heart smiles
my eyes reveal my core
my soul ablaze
id die for you

13.9.13

hummingoat


sociopolitical role | sociopolitical war
this is our people  | this is our land
dont mean to be so loud | yet to sing in a soft tune
it's not that i am proud | or that i'm a buffoon
the east and the west | change your perspectives
what you thought best | barriers n objectives
break through boundaries | cultural and religious
all with the use of the | transcendental linguistics
speak the truth | of the human mind
leave out not one | of any single kind

26.2.13

she hides







this songs a prayer
written 'cause i'm weak
keep findin the dark
when the light is what i seek

20.11.12

soft as stone

when a person dies, a community does too.
you can
no longer look into their eyes
you freeze in the memories

solid as stones
yet only exist in your mind
its times you've got a hold on
a firm grip-but..

how do you let go of a dream
this n i g h t m a r e. .  .   .    .     .

14.5.12

barefoot blues

bahh
bahhh
black sheep

....have you any WOOL!?

oh boy i-
i-i-i-i-
been searchin.
been searchin boy,
searchin for
my sou'ls skin.

15.3.12

contradictions of love



These violent delights have violent ends,
And in their triumph die; like fire and powder,
Which, as they kiss, consume: the sweetest honey
Is loathsome in his own deliciousness,
And in the taste confounds the appetite:
Therefore love moderately: long love doth so;
Too swift arrives as tardy as too slow (II, vi)
-Shakespeare 
pre·scient  /ˈprɛʃənt, ‐iənt ˈpriʃənt, / [presh-uhnt] adj.having prescience, or knowledge of things or events before they exist or happen; having foresight

9.3.12



following the omens
searching for the light
& atop the depths of my heart
the full moon she floats
i remember


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sin·cere, adj.
1. free of deceit, hypocrisy, or falseness; earnest: a sincere apology.
2. genuine; real: a sincere effort to improve; a sincere friend.
3. pure; unmixed; unadulterated.
4. Obsolete . sound; unimpaired.
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8.6.11

blessed with a mind with constant ripples, constant twitches and riddles


let me try and write until i can find some sort of clarity in this messy assorted mind of mine.


--after i wrote the above, i got distracted and began doing something else. hardcore fail on my part for sure, but that's the exact thing i'm trying to get at. i haven't been able to bring myself to write or draw anything. the last time i really tried was so long ago that i can't even remember, but definitely not in the past six months.
i've turned to stone
again.
i feel like i've figured it out so many times. that maybe my creativity is being robbed by my actions. it always comes to that conclusion, but then after a while i become unconvinced yet again.